version.

today was a communication breakthrough.

i didn't give up

i didn't chicken out

i said what i wanted to and didn't hold back.

and man, it felt good.

the best part was, she didn't get defensive at all.

she was open to it

and appreciated my honesty

and is definitely taking my words into consideration.

it feels good.

to communicate openly and honestly.

i'm trying.

i'm trying to become a better person

a better friend.

I'm trying to do things out of love

and maintain a positive vibe around everyone.

i'm making plans for my future

on my own and for myself.

I spent a lot of time worrying about everyone else

and trying to keep everyone happy

and i was doing it all the wrong way.

Being passive and letting people use me as a doormat

isn't helping anyone

especially myself.

I'm trying to fix things and tie up loose ends

and even... let certain ones go if thats what they want.

it's hard.

but no one ever told me it was going to be easy.

i'm glad its not though.

working for something

and putting your own blood and sweat into it always makes it worth the battle.

and i think this battle is slowly coming to an end.

now all i have to do is count the survivors....