i confess, do you detest?

I am just me.

Just Kate.

I over-analyze everything.

I put on 4 different types of lotion every time i get out of the shower.

And yes, to me it's necessary.

I could eat an entire bag of Raisinettes in one sitting.

I cannot sleep without a blanket, even if it's 90 degrees out.

I find comfort in fictional characters.

I'm clumsy.

My shirt is never fully clean

and i can barely walk 3 feet without stumbling over myself.

I'm extremely difficult.

I hate double standards and will call you out on them...

to your face.

I still get nervous singing in front of people

even though i've been on stage numerous times.

I can't go to sleep until both my closet doors are shut and my night light is on.

I constantly allow people to walk all over me because when my mom left my family, i had no choice but to do what i was told and shut up about it.

I love flirting with danger...

The idea of something bad possibly happening excites me

it makes my blood pump and my head rush.

I freak out about school work, my body image, and how people see me.

I'm not very fond of driving, it kills my nerves.

I hate professional baseball.

I never finish my drink.

I'm probably dehydrated 99% of the time.

I rarely do what i know is best for me.

And i fucking hate being ignored... even if it's a joke.

That is me.

I am filled to the brim with flaws.

I could list about 100 more too... on a daily basis.

I'm not perfect.

I'm not even close.

But... i have never once claimed to be.

I am just me.

Just Kate.

A girl who knows she isn't perfect

knows she has a lot to work on

knows that she will continue to keep changing

keep evolving

keep adding to her list of self-improvement.

The only thing that i have

that is fully steadfast

fully pure

fully strong

and fully ready to give it's entirety to another human being despite everything

is my heart.

That is all i have to offer anyone.

That is the only thing that,

i hope,

would help anyone oversee all my faults

all my failures

and know that i am worth it.

regardless of everything else.

and i am.

i promise, i am.