Wake up call.

i am really fucking tired of focusing on myself.

i'm about to graduate

and all of my time has been spent thinking about what i want to do

how i want to do it

where i want to go.

I can't even have a conversation with someone without them asking me about me.

Is it possible to be sick of myself?

I've been looking into volunteer projects recently.

One of my teachers mentioned reading/recording books for the blind in class

and i've gone as far as calling the main organization for more information about how i can be apart of it.

I don't know.

I'm sick of thinking about my own interests

and my own day to day stupid, repetitive drama 

of school, plays, boys and how to distract myself from all of them.

I don't want to be consumed with it anymore.

I don't want to be bored with myself and others.

I don't want to sit and dwell about shit that won't matter tomorrow.

I want to wake up and do something I'm going to be proud of.

So...

here i go.

Please let something happen.